al_b_thatshit (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} al_b_thatshit) wrote,@ 2005-09-29 12:21:00 |
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| Current mood: |  I feel GOOD |
God works in mystery ways....
I said fuck it
She BEEN said fuck it
But the man upstairs says nah Y'all two aint done yet.
its been almost three months since I laid with my wife for first time in months she kissed me reluctantly I thought I would not feel anything....but I did so, I stay. Hopefully she will stay a lil longer too now. I had plans, she BEEN had plans, only GOD has the Master Plan. And thats the one that matters the most.
I LOVE my Wife no matter how much I want to hate her sometimes her I can't. When I see her in pain I'm like the lil kid in schoolyard who want to beat up everyone in sight, who cause her pain. Maybe thats why I come down on myself so hard when I do things that I know are not right. Sometimes I sit and realize that maybe the problem is that my wife and I are too much alike. So much where I think we never ever fully disclose every thing about one another out of fear of not being understood. But in actuality WE are probably the only ones you will. If the lord says it ain't over, cool. Then I am ready for the new challenge.
OPERATION DESTROY and REBUILD is in FULL EFFECT.
Summertime has came and is gone.
Its a NEW season now. Fall is the season of change.
